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Wednesday, June 27th, 2007
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tomorrow my moms getting surgery. i havent told anyone. not one person. i dont like talking out my problems, but now that its the night before im worried. i just dont understand how they clear a woman with a serious heart condition for surgery. idiots. im sure she'll be fine, shes had similar surgeries before but idk. i guess keeping it in for so long finally got to me today. so yea i'll be unreachable for 7 hours tomorrow cause you cant do the cell phone in hospitals but when i get back i guess i'll let those who are concerned know how it went. dont expect much feedback cause i dont like talking about my personal shit, esp this kinda stuff. well hope everyone else is well out there in lj land. payce.
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Wednesday, September 27th, 2006
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um theres a kid in my avf 1 class that looks exactly like patrick dempsey (aka dr.mcdreamy from grey's anatomy) and yea im gonna try hitting on him tomorrow. woo!
great update i know.
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Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
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lets see. i really like my professors/classes. only bad thing is i take 5 classes. i have 5 textbooks. and for homework every night i have to read a chapter in each. some arent bad, like 10 pages. but others are 30 pages in very tiny font. so needless to say my books have been owning my life lately.
i did get a chance to party with my hu loves which was awesome, even though im the only girl? well alissa too but she has a b.f. its just so much easier to make friends with guys than girls lol
umm im excited about a boy thing, but im not gonna get my hopes up or even focus on it cause thats how itll get ruined before it even happens.
im not talking to one of my best friends lately. um, basically he always used to get mad when i didnt tell him when i was mad at him now hes doing the same thing? saying it via away messages? real mature. idk i think he needs to stop being a drama queen cause lets be honest i havent really talked to or even hung out with a lot of people since school started. alyssa lives down the block from me and i have maybe said 2 words to her since school started. i think i just need to get into a fixed routine and i'll be good to go.
and seriously whats up with all these sites trying to track your every move? first facebook now lj? gotta love living in a stalker friendly world!
i need a job. leave suggestions.
k thanks bye.
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Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
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i just spent a half hour reading arguments for and against the new facebook. and i love that it all turned into a bullying session on this one kid and how since he doesnt agree with everyone else and doesnt conform that he is obviously gay. nice to see we've all grown up since being in college.
just thought i'd share that with you.
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Friday, September 1st, 2006
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yeooooo.
well i figured i'd update cause im a sheep. bahh.
plus i need to write some shit down just for personal reasons.
this is all going to be random btw, so bare with it.
so sal has a gf? idk. i think its a little ridic. and i voiced that to him. i dont think they have even hooked up and already he is saying how much he loves her. shes in his pro. in his myspace. i chose to ignore it, and in doing so i starting ignoring him. bad move. but of course him being him, he confronted me. i usually dont like having it out with him bc i know what hes going through, i mean he just got out of that desert survivor type thing last week. but yea whatevv. he likes her, or loves her (yeaaa ok) and i guess im happy for him. maybe im just jealous. no, im not jealous cause i liek him, just jealous causse i miss all the attention i used to get from him. i almost feel replaced. i mean as much of a dick i was to him on the phone, i miss his calls. yea thats right now he only calls twice a week instead of twice a day. i'd call that replaced.
but hes gonna be home for the entire winter break when everyone else is home so i wont have to see certain people i dont want to see. yay.
smitty is gone. umm i dont have much to say about that really. except for the fact he was a dick the last two nights he was here. basically he ditched me twice for that whore. once again, im not jealous, just missing the attention. call me an attention whore but whatev. so we really didnt say goodbye. doubt he cares as much as i do, which is weird cause you;d think it'd be the other way around. whatev.
then theres the whole "b" situation. which isnt a situation at all, yes ive come to that conclusion. i just hate how he feels the need to taunt me. like seriously i knew nothing would come of that, but he knew how i felt. yet he couldnt leave it alone. all i wanted to do was forget him and everytime i tried he'd IM me, or call. i think he liked the attention i gave him. i would know right? i just hate how much time of the summer i wasted on him. dick.
so basically i will have a new job within the next few weeks. the pizzeria is sold, and i dont want to work for the new guys. plus i just need a change cause lets be honest, 2 and a half years is a crazy long time. i applied to aero, pac sun, and fye. hopefully i'll hear back from one of them soon.
school starts soon too. im so pumped for that, you have no idea. this summer lacked parties quite a bit. im ready to party with my hu lovers! im also pumped about the classes im taking, since they are more geared toward my major than the classes i already took.
i really want a boyfriend too. mainly so i have someone i can hang out with all the time, haha. but i know i wont find one if im looking. ohh well. ::crosses fingers::
good luck to everyone this semester, and hopefully i'll see you all soon.
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Monday, August 28th, 2006
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| Time: | 9:15 pm. |
| Mood: |  restless. | | Music: | angela baker and my obssesion with fire- senses fail. |
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everything is falling apart.
i can not wait for school to start.
i need a routine to fall back into. and mainly something to keep me occupied.
fuck.
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Thursday, July 20th, 2006
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so i feel really different lately. i feel mature if that makes any sense.
plus i feel like i look differnt. well i have glasses now and my bangs are real short. but idk. when i look in the mirror i just see someone completely different from who i used to be, and i think i like it.
CALIFORNIA TOMORROW. HAVE FUN IN THE RAIN BITCHESSSS!
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so i'll be soaking up the sun in cal-eee-forn-i-ayyy one week from today.
yea that kinda rhymed.
basically cant wait.
umm my birthday is also in a few days. im probably just gonna go to the beach and then to lynseys bbq cause i hate my family. i already got 2 gifts early and they are both being returned cause no one fucking listens to me.
yes im that much of a bitch. especially when i take 15 min. to explain exactly what i want.
the other thing i realized about these mess ups is that no one in my family knows me. at all. whatev.
things are just going real bad lately. and by things i mean everything. i try to put on a good front, i think it works. laughings my favorite!
summers gonna suck too. suck hard. but i'll keep smiling.
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| Mood: |  ditzy. | | Music: | 1000 miles- vanessa carlton. |
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im kinda going to los angeles, cali on june 2-9 w/mi madre y mi hermana.
heres just a rough itinerary:
-santa monica pier
-santa monica state beach
-ventura beach
-universal studios
-hollywood walk of fame
-grauman's chinese theater/china town
-la zoo
-rodeo drive/beverly hils/sunset strip
etc....
plus theres like one more thing, but i dont want to create an uproar so i'll fill ya'll in when i get back.lol.
pretty much cant wait, lord knows i deserve a hott vaca. peace bitches<3
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Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
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so
whats up. nothing much here. god you are all so talkative.
hmm. so meo was here last weekend. that was cool. wasnt a real good length of time though to do anything worth mentioning..idiot!
umm erica comes home like tomorrow! im pumped. love that girl and our starbucks dates.
so school is nuts. it is sooo much work compared to last semester. and my teachers are def. way harder with their grading policies. fuck that man. butttt not to sound like im in 4th grade but we had to write an op-ed piece for english and he took some papers and used them as a handout showing the difference b/t an a,b,c paper. well mine was the a paper. it made me happy cause thats what i wanna do, journalism! yay i picked the right one i think lol
thursday nights have been pretty sick not gonna lie. mad bp up at hofstra. my boys got a table in their room and everyhing. woop woop.
so yea i cant wait till like april/mayish. going to bamboozle. going to bing. going to nj to see saves the day. im ready for a show, its been a while. daddy is even letting me drive to nj, how nuts is that?! haha.
yea so this was pointless and yea idk. so i love love the song im listening to right now. its from the movie closer which i rented and i love it. basically bc clive owen is a sick bastard. haha. and this song is phenominal, hence why its in my myspace pro.
ok! im off hopefully to drink. bye!
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Friday, February 3rd, 2006
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so im updating. but no pictures. deal.
umm school has finally started for me, thank the lord! and once again i love it. i think i just love hofstra in general? but anywho i'll give you a quick rundown..
mon:
math 4:30-5:55 yea one class. good stuff. i like the teacher, he seems mad chill. and kevin's in my class!
tues &thurs:
spanish at mother flipping 8 AM. yea the time sucks, but its cool cause theres like 3 hott boys in there. even exchange i;d say. and the teacher is this little old lady, def. alive during the civil war and def. half my height haha. her accent is hilarious
english right after. the teacher is a young guy and i like him. he is tres cool even though he made the course theme violence? yea so every reading we do, or paper we write will involve a blood bath. awesome!
thennn psych. and omg best teacher. first off this is like the first huge lecture class i've ever been in. prob like 100 kids. butt the teacher is nuts. hes like this italian mob type, ya know talks with the brooklyn accent. and holy shit he makes sooo many references to pot and crystal meth. like when a kid says something stupid he'll be like and there is a classic case of what pot can do to you. haha best guy and hes like old. idk, guess you gotta be there to get it?
weds:
yea i got math again. but at 6:30 i have oral communications and its 3 hours so it goes till 9:30. but the teacher said the latest shed keep us is 9 so needless to say i like her alot. but public speaking is not my forte. but yea i should probably work on it since im a broadcast journalism major. just succks cause i have to wake up the next day for an 8 AM class. but whatev.
yea i know none of you read that. its ok. you dont care. i get it.
but umm i really like school? and life in general right now. no offense but when all you kids go back to college the drama just goes away. so maybe the drama doesnt follow me? it follows you? yea i think so!
so they sold pizza palace. its sad. i know whos buying it, but i dont want to work for them. i just dont feel like finding a job right now. it just sucks cause 1) i hate starting a new job and being at the bottom of the barrel 2) i really like the people i work with. ALOT.
gahh. yea so boys? i dont know. mike has been taking me to the movies lately. but yea im really indecisive. idk.
and now that i have fridays off that means mad parties on thurs. and you know how i am when im drunk. mad hiiits.
but im peacing for now. comment if you think i should write any more of these gay things. k thanks bye.
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Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
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Monday, December 5th, 2005
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yeaaa so i just want you all to know i'm not dead and there will be an lj entry with a ton of pics if i make it through this week: psych presentation, psych reaction paper, philosophy paper, english paper, spanish test, & spanish oral final exam. we'll see what happens.
i finally got my psych midterm today, freaking 90 and she writes on my paper "congrats, 2nd highest grade in the class" that just made me want to find the highest person and punch them in the face.
not gonna lie i'm pretty psyched about all my grades except philosophy. so far i got one grade cause the course was over like 2 weeks ago (library and technology)....a- not too shabby considering i thought at most i was gonna get a c.
i got to talk to sal on the phone the other night. that makes me sooo happy. he sounds different, his voice is like 10x deeper..its nuts! its like puberty part 2! haha. i miss him a lot not gonna lie. he was one of very few "true" friends. yea i have to rethink quite a few of my friendships, whether i want them or not or whether i want to be more than just friends hehe.
it seems like when i get into fights with friends its always over the same shit and we might be able to divert the attention away from it for a bit, but we can never avoid it completely. it sucks because its shit like that thats always in the back of my mind even when we;re having good times. i feel for some people im just not good enough and i might just be right...
but other friendships may turn into more hehe. i hung out with mike! and we saw harry potter high! and hes so nice! and i actually might like him! finally! but seriously hes one of the very few people that can make me forget my problems, even make me smile and make me feel good about myself. its good stuff let me tell you<3
so i need to get cracking on this work. lots of pics next time i promise!
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Monday, November 21st, 2005
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sooo thanksgiving is this week. yay! cant wait to party with all my old friends...miss you guys like woahhhhh.
somethings happened this week that i cant really say on here, but ask and i might tell you (its really supposed to be on the d/l though)
so sat i was supposed to go on like a double blind date cause my friend toni's boyfriend was coming up with his friend but a bunch of us ended up going to a house party instead...
( i'll give in this once... )
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Sunday, November 6th, 2005
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yea so i was really sick this week. i had freaking strep throat. then the doctor thought i had bronchitis too cause i had a man cough, no joke. so i got a prescription for that and it made me even more sick. like gross sick. so then the doctor gave me a breathing test and decided i dont have bronchitis, that i have a breathing problem. so i have to go to this specialist dude now, should be great fun. i seriously blame college because everyone and their teacher smokes and i always get stuck behind them, and im probably gonna die before they do and i just dont think thats fair.
anywaaaaaaay, last night was a frat party. i wont make you wait anymore...
( i wanna stay 18 forever )
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Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
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Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
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soooo i kinda like this boy, its a silly little crush but hey who knows. i'm probably gonna have to make the first move. awesome, not like i havent before haha.
i kinda dropped calculus cause yea thats just not for me. at all! and i got a ninety freaking five on my first spanish test. basically i own that class.
halloween is like next week and i really dont know what im doing yet. getting fucked up sounds good :)
this weekend looks promising. seeing saw 2, haunted house?, partying at h.u. woot woot! expect pictures<333
pointless entries are fun!
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Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
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so basically last night was superheros party at tims. it was mad fun and people got mad drunk. i was mrs incredible and gotta say my costume came out freaking awesome. there were a lot of spidermen a few ninja turtles and a jesus. here are some picsss...
( dress to impress )
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